The tickets have been purchased!

I'm going to New York!
Sept 28 - Oct 2

Well, technically I am going to NJ, NY, & MA
For these Posies shows:

09.28.05 Hoboken NJ Maxwell's w/Oranger, The Deathray Davies
09.29.05 New York City NY Bowery Ballroom w/Oranger, The Deathray Davies (JON'S BIRTHDAY!!!)
09.30.05 Northhampton MA Iron Horse w/Oranger, The Deathray Davies
10.01.05 Cambridge MA Middle East w/Oranger, The Deathray Davies - Downstairs

Anyone on here going to any of these?

I spoke too soon...

The gerbil babies did not make it. :-(
Oh well, maybe the next time?
Or maybe it just was not meant to be.

I went to the dentist this morning. never a good way to start the day.

On a happier note:
We went school shopping for Darian over the weekend. She is now wearing teen sizes which we are finding are a LOT more expensive than the children's sizes. We spent over $150 on 3 pairs of jeans that looked like they were well used! I guess that is the style these days. (That comment made me sound old!) Darian also picked up a happy bunny sweatshirt that she is just in love with.
Welcome to the teen years, I look forward to being broke all of the time! :-)

It is so nice having Jon home, even if it is only for a few days...

Why I am SO happy:

1- Jon gets home in 4 hours
2- Kodo just now gave birth to TWO gerbil babies! Yay! Since there are two there is a really good chance they will live! :-)

I am so happy!

But now I know I can't go back...

Severna Park just came up on my I-tunes and it is bringing back all of these silly memories from 1997. Those guys were so much fun to hang out with and their shows were always such a good time. That really was the end of a very magical time in music in this town. They were not the greatest band, but people and the shows were a lot of fun.

Growing up is the death of imagination. Even though I may look like an adult from time to time and even sound like one, never forget that I am really a tiger in sheep's clothing.

AAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaa.........

Do you hear that? I bet you can if you listen really hard.
That is the sound of me screaming in my head.
I am trying to stay awake.
I am trying to be patient.
Waiting for the clock.
Waiting for Saturday.
Waiting for my love to come home.
Waiting for kisses.

Waiting waiting waiting
I am so sick of waiting

Adventures in Homemaking

I have been trying to renovate my bedroom before Jon gets home next weekend. I decided to paint my room purple and put up new blinds and get rid of a lot of the clothes I have collected over the years that I don't wear and get the closet all organized and thinned out. (Right now our closet is packed to the brim because I buy WAY too many clothes. There are things in there I probably have never even taken the tags off of.
So I start with the painting.
Our room is sort of a long rectangle. We have the bed up against the wall with the window and there is just enough room for use to walk up either side of it. It is such a weird shaped room, long and skinny. Jon doesn't like how bright it gets in the daytime as he works a lot of nights and tries to sleep in the daytime. I was hoping new blinds would help prevent him from hanging towels and other makeshift light blockers on my window since he didn't think the pannels I had hanging prevented enough light from coming in. Trust me there is nothing more ghetto looking than towels draped over your windows! I hate it!
I decided I would paint the wall around the window a dark purple with a high gloss finish and the other three walls a super light lavender color. This went OK until I realized I had to do a couple of layers of the high gloss to get it right and by that time I was blistered and tired so I got a little lazy and ended up getting a little on the ceiling Ugh! I bought some paint to correct that and it is looking totally fine now.
After I finished the painting on 3 of the four walls (I still have one light purple wall left to paint) I decided I hated our curtains and I was going to buy some of those pretty bamboo matchstick blinds to fix the lighting issue.
I brought them home last night. I could not locate my power drill anywhere so I had to manually remove the thing that was hanging our old blinds. This resulted in a lot of swearing and owies and these ugly little white squares in the purple paint that I will have to now touch up today. When I finally figure out that I was trying to hang the new blinds backwards, got them unraveled and got them up the right way I marked the wall and planted the brackets.
Did I mention my window is 8 feet long? Yeah, it is huge, I should not have been trying to hang these alone! So I get them up and guess what?!?! I hung them about 2 inches too far to the right so they did not cover 1 inch of the window! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!! So I measured again, removed all of the brackets moved them all over and FINALLY three hours later got them hung up and working! yay! Victory! Or was it?

Last night they looked amazing against the purple. They blocked everything out just right and everything. This morning.... This morning the inside of my room looked like I had nothing hanging on the window. They are about as sheer as the window itself! How did I miss that? I am now considering starting a small bon fire out front this eve when I get home.
Maybe that is why they are called "Matchstick" blinds?

To find some beautiful place to get lost....

This weekend was interesting to say the least. Some of it was a little too slow for where I was in my head and some of it was well... There were moments where I didn't feel married, 31, like someone's mother or anything else that makes me remember to act responsibly.
I was 18 again staying out until 5AM with my girlfriend talking to cute boys and drinking a weird mix of booze from Gatoraid bottles at a party where the cops showed up three times to tell us to quiet down. (My girl was gone for the weekend visiting her grandparents so I had a license to get into a little trouble. )
The only difference was that I am 31 and don't have that strange awkwardness around boys or strangers as I did when I was a kid. It is a combination of being older and wiser and being married so there is no pressure because I am not looking to date any of these people.
I would love to go into great detail about the weekend just so I had it all written down to remember but really it would be so much to write and my hands are sore from painting my bedroom purple yesterday. I have the biggest blisters ever on my right hand right now. So you will just have to be satisfied with this:

The moon was full and we were full of mischief. There is nothing better than having a partner in crime who is in the same mental place when you are feeling that way. Now hopefully we will be able to channel that energy into the band... That is right, I said The Band!

Stay tuned! ;-)

on with it....

I feel like I should go ahead and do my birthday post now that I think I have milked the day for all its worth and it is time to stick a fork in it and call it done.

I must accept the day has come and gone and I am now officially in my thirties, no longer just thirty. I know, "Wha!" right?

Whatever, just don't come crying to me when it happens to you!

We started celebrating my birthday on Thursday eve at Midnight at the Teenage Fanclub show. Great show, if you missed it, you missed out! After the show we went down to the band room. The guys were all very sweet and gracious hosts. They made sure we were all set up with drinks and offered snack and so on. We toasted my birthday as it was now after midnight.
I look forward to maybe seeing them again later this year in Germany when they are on the road with The Posies!

Thursday night was my birthday. Wonderful Licia set up for everyone to meet at Ye Old Spaghetti Factory. loads of my friends showered me with love and many lovely scented gifts. I received a lot of different flavors of lotion and some pretty awesome chocolate. Is that because once you get to be "in your thirties" moisturizer is so much more important? I didn't ask, and I am not complaining. This is the good stuff. Also got a yummy CD that I have been dying to hear. Mmmmm... Great music, yummy lotion and amazing chocolate. That sounds like a good night!

Friday I was at work and I got a Fed Ex package from my darling husband (Who is in Sweden today I think???) He ordered from my favorite gift buying place www.ice.com. I am now the proud owner of my dream bracelet! It is a classic diamond and white gold tennis bracelet. I spent half the day like a crow mesmerized by the sparkle in all different light. What a good man. I can't wait until he gets home so I can properly thank him. He gives the best gifts!

Saturday I treated myself and my friend to pedicures and pampering which was much needed.

Sunday I went shopping. I was compelled to spend all of the money my mom sent me for my birthday. I bought myself some new sunglasses, a classic Luis Vuitton purse and a really cute Coach clutch. (Thus ending all purse purchases for at least 6 months. I think I have an addiction!)
Swung by Nordstrom and picked up some cute fishnet tights to go with my party dresses. It seems I don't have a problem spending my mom's money after all! Shocking I know! I still need to call her and tell her what she bought for me.

Sunday eve we went to Chop Suey for what was called Hipsters and Fags night. It was pretty slow when we first got there but started to pick up. There were $1 drinks so I spent a lot of time trying to get Amie loaded so I could convince her to sing Karaoke for the gong show. I think in an attempt to drink enough, we drank too much and decided to just call it a night without singing. The next time I will be doing my version of the Banana Boat song. I know you all wait with baited breath.

Thus ends my birthday week. I will now continue on with my thirties.

I'll be your fanclub baby!

Licia, Amie and I hit the Teenage Fanclub show last eve. I had drinks. Since I don't normally drink, any amount is too much for me, but I think I may have overdone it. I am still feeling a little wooozy this morning!
The show was pretty great, really crowded, but the band sounded good. We ended up watching the 2nd half of the show in the room next to the show room only because it was so stifling hot and there was really no place to stand. (Unless you wanted to be pressed up against strangers) Oddly enough the sound was fabulous from that room.
Since The Posies are going to be doing some shows with them later this year and they are old mates from back when we were on the list to get in. Jon made me promise to thank to tour manager after the show for setting it up. So after a wonderful pop music show, I went and found the tour manager and he asked if we would be interested in coming down and saying hello to the lads. We said, "But of course!"
We grab our Capillaries friend Michael as well since he had shown some interest in meeting them if the chance arrived.
We went down to the band room. the guys were all very sweet and gracious hosts. They made sure we were all set up with drinks and offered snack and so on. Michael and I spent a good amount of our time down in the band room bending Norman's ear. He was so sweet and super funny.
After a few hours of gabbing and drinking it was time to head off for those of us who had to work early in the morning and for the guys to hit the road as they have to be in CA for a show today!
All I can say is that they are top Notch guys, it was a pleasure hanging out with them and I look forward to maybe seeing them again later this year!

Oh and it is my birthday today.

Do a shout out!

The paper I work for has added a new Friends and Family section to their website. it is free to post shout outs to friends and Pet photos and so on. We have been encouraged to ask our friends to give it a try. If you have a moment and have a lover/friend/pet/fave band/shoe that you would like to give a shout out to, please swing by and do so! The more the better! (And hey! It is free!)
http://classifieds.thestranger.com/seattle/index

So Dooo iiit!

Thank you very much!

I've been having a love affair this week...

With this band called The Elected. Actually I am lovng this song in particular:

~Greetings In Braille~

If my senses fail, stay with me 'til they go
'cause I don't want to be alone.
Greetings in Braille, they'll describe everything,
colors aren't everything.
And if you see me down at the liquor store,
please don't tell my dad.
And if you see my dad down at the liquor store,
don't tell me anything at all.
And the people you brought
are just drainpipes bringing trash to the ground.
And the memories are just picture cards,
one night stands and breakdowns.
And you were cold, tired and old as you'd ever looked that night.
And we were warned, yeah.
We were warned not to stay out too late.
But some things were worth getting in trouble for.
So now that you finally failed
just like you said you would, down to the last detail.

Well, if living's such hell, here's to your dying days.
You won't have to be afraid.
And the heroes you met were just fiction,
yeah, with higher expectations.
And your friends grew up faster than you got successful,
told you to keep it up. Good comes to those who work.
And the stories they told you were true, babe.
Your mom really went crazy.
But that doesn't have to be you.
No.
And I miss Tara and Melissa, Allen and John.
And you'll never have friends like you did when you were young.
But our bodies were pulled away and swept out to the sea
and I'd call and say hi if I thought you'd remember me.
cause some things are worth leaving old memories for.
If my senses fail, stay with me 'til they go
'cause I don't want to be alone.
Greetings in Braille, should describe everything
'cause you can't see anything from here.
From here, you can't see nothing at all.

last days of new beginnings

So tomorrow is my last day of 30. No more 30. Starting Friday I will have to answer "31" when people ask me how old I am.
I read somewhere once that when you die, no matter how old or young you are, you will always appear as 30 if you are ever a ghost. Now I know this is complete Bollocks, but it did make me have a major "What If?" moment. Of all of the ages I could appear to be for the rest of eternity it would so NOT be 30! I would probably have to say I would choose to be the latter half of 18 and beginning of 19. I wasted so much pretty on the louse I was with back then, but alas, had I not been with him, there would be no Darian, so I should just count my blessings.

My mom always says that you should not complain about getting older because it sure beats the alternative. I just thought by now I would know what I wanted to be when I grow up. So far I have concluded that I only really enjoy not working, playing with children and playing guitar. And no I do not want to be an elementary school music teacher! If the position of Rock n Roll Martha Stuart was open, I would be the first to apply!

Maybe I should just start a cult? I hear there is big money in that.

I am going to rock it with my girls at Teenage Fanclub tomorrow for a little early birthday celebration. The Posies are doing some touring with them later in the year so I was able to get the list hookup. Very cool indeed. Shows are so much better when you don't have to pay for them!

Oh and for the record My husband + large quantities of booze + a camera phone =

I have never been more attracted to him!

Peanut RIP

Peanut is dead. I came home and he was only a head. It was very very sad. Hopefully the next litter has more babies. We can't say we didn't try, it just was not meant to be this time.